Story of my Life

On the Blog Again in 2010Published September 7, 2010 at 08:05 2 Comments

I know that it’s ok to ‘sometimes not be OK,’ but admitting that I’m feeling this way is about as palatable as the bitter taste of defeat. One of my biggest struggles is in accepting that despite my firm belief that ‘you make your own happiness,’ there are some days that I just can’t make myself happy. Acknowledging that sadness or anger or frustration has gotten the better of me is harder than the actual ‘feeling not OK’ part. Being what it is, life dealt me this hand, but with it came a silver lining: An acute awareness and the innate understanding that I’m human and that ‘not always OK’ is… OK. In understanding this I also know that every day is a new opportunity for me to write my story in any direction I want it to go. Today, (this is) the story of my life…

Who Says You Can’t Go Home?

On the Blog Again in 2010Published July 31, 2010 at 23:07 2 Comments

In my life I’ve traveled to many places and lived in a few, too. I was born in Canada, grew up in Colorado, and ended up in San Francisco, CA by the time I was 17. In the years since I’ve struggled with trying to figure out where I’m supposed to be – literally and figuratively. I still don’t have the answers, but one thing’s for sure – “home” is some place I haven’t quite found, but I haven’t stopped looking for…

We’re Meant to be a Part of Each Other

Featured Life as a Recovering Blogger (2009)Published February 20, 2009 at 05:16 Comments Off

I believe that everyone I meet in my life is supposed to be a part of my life. I believe that [our] “lifepaths” cross for a reason.

The Light’s On 4U

I'm a Blogger (1999 - 2008)Published December 11, 2008 at 23:11 2 Comments

I know this is an American Idol song (and I’m not at all a fan of the show) but lately I can’t get it out of my head. I listened to it a lot while I was in CA the last few weeks.

Bad Things

I'm a Blogger (1999 - 2008)Published November 20, 2008 at 02:25 Comments Off

Take it however you want it, but I wanna do bad things… right now.
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When you came in the air went out.
And every shadow filled up with doubt.
I don’t know who you think you are,
But before the night is through,
I wanna do bad things with you.

Goodnight, Goodnight

I'm a Blogger (1999 - 2008)Published November 17, 2008 at 04:15 Comments Off

The two lines of “Goodnight, Goodnight” that speak to me:

“It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world“

and the following, underlined…

You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
I�ve lick my wounds but I can�t ever see them getting better
Something�s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

Heart of Steel

I'm a Blogger (1999 - 2008)Published October 4, 2008 at 19:05 Comments Off

Today, a flood of memories, circa 1993: the lyrics speak to me and they say

Those who laugh and crowd the path
And cut each others throats
Will fall like melting snow

F*ck You

I'm a Blogger (1999 - 2008)Published September 23, 2008 at 22:36 1 Comment

Just some lovely ugly lyrics that’ve been floating around in my head for the last week or so. Even though the song sounds like a less-than-desirable choice of music, it has one of those tunes that kinda gets stuck on ‘repeat’ in one’s head.